IV.xiv. La Garance
"What astonishes me here, and what makes painting here so attractive to me, is the clearness of the air; you can't even know what it is, because we don't have it where we're from. From an hour away one can distinguish the colour of things: the grey-green of the olive trees, the green grass of the fields, for example, and the lilac pink of a worked field. Where we're from, we can only see a vague grey horizon line; here, the line is clear for a great distance, and the outline recognizable. This gives an idea of space and of sky."
- Vincent Van Gogh
My grandmother, Nadine De Montmollin, named her house after the plant she found growing on her property when she first purchased it. Garance, coveted by drapiers for its crimson ink bearing seeds, was used for centuries to dye the berets of French Marines. It was growing here long before the waves of ex-pats invaded the Luberon valley, long before Peter Mayle wrote A Year in Provence, long before the hordes.
Grandmaman built this house for her retirement, and she lived well in it. She became a matron of sorts, a centre of the artistic expatriate community that had its glory days when I was just a small child. Still, I remember those days, because I spent my childhood summers here. La Garance is the place of my youth.
I owe perhaps more than I can imagine to my grandmother. In 1995 she took my brother and I to Paris. Together our eyes were opened to the glittering world that was Europe. We saw all the sights, but none left more of an impression on me than the Cluny Museum, where I remember turning the pages of a book of illuminated manuscripts, each precious, gilded page encased in glass. That was a formative moment, with Grandmaman watching over, and with her a few days later we saw the glass at Chartres and I knew for me there was to be no turning back.
Ten years after I am sitting here at the round wooden table where, for as long as I can remember, I have been sitting down each year to draw, read, and write. My family is here with me, but the house will forever have a tinge of loneliness to it without Grandmaman. The last time I saw my grandmother, in August 1997 barely a month before she died, she gave Alex and I keys to the house. With them was a note saying that one day, we too would be masters of this place. I didn't realize what that meant at the time, but I still keep the key, and the memory of her, close with me.
These days we don't get to La Garance as much as we would like. We rent it out during the summer to cover costs, and my mother shares it with her sister. Still, like a continuing gift from my grandmother, it has become a place of happy acquaintance, to which the family can steal away the odd December holiday, and meet up to be tranquil for once. In the years to come I am sure we'll all appreciate this even more, as our paths begin to grow evermore apart.
Today I am here with my parents, my brother, and our friends Alan and Denise, who after picking me up at the train station near Nice drove me here. They will stay just a few days, my family a little longer. It is time to savour.